I can?t seem to find you in my heart. You're just not there, I can?t sit here and be unpleased Thinking about why I have you here. You say you love me, But my heart pushes you away I think I love you, but it's not the truth Everyday in my heart you seem to fade. I?m trying to stay true to myself I hope you can see I can?t always listen to your emotions And be as you want me to be. I can?t help it but to love you Love you Unhonest Love that isn?t honest Can?t flow through my heart constantly You?re not my first, First boy who trapped me in their spell To the point where I cry at night That I have my own little shell. Boy I can say I love you But I lie to your face with a pound of shame Our relationship Was all a big game? Don?t get me wrong I feel real bad But I warned your heart before to save it from being sad.