even in reality my nightmare becomes my actuality, physically mentally and emotionally tearing me apart, bringing m life upside down. your kiss is brutal your love is venom and your touch is deadly. pulse running through my veins. i see the damage you've caused but too weak to let it go. i'm enticed and amused by your love. i'm amazed how often i come back. deeply you drag me and harder i fall. this nightmare is my reality i'm not sure how to go or where to let go but for now, the hurt you give me heals the pain of lonely. and i like the way that feels.